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I felt it for a moment today, for the first time in a long time, I believe. It’s that overwhelming, crushing feeling that can only be described as utter hopelessness. Depression, for lack of a better term. The kind that has little to no reason, it’s just there, as if there was never a thing in your life that made you happy. It’s like forgetting what happiness is. When there’s so many things running through your mind that bring you down that you can’t get away from it, and so you wear it on your face like a cheap halloween mask. People can’t see you through the mask, they are only turned away by it, and even at their very best, they can only ask you to take it off. When people all around you can see your sadness, and it only brings them down, you become ashamed that you are so, and it makes you even more uglier. I must have wore that face for many years of my life, but even now it comes as a surrprise to me to see how quickly it can fall off. I think I’ve learned a few tricks over the years. There are suddle things everywhere that can help shake you out of the zone. Colors and sounds and people laughing, or the tone in a stranger’s voice when they are trying show you respect. I think that’s what woke me up today, because even if I am not close to a single person around me, I still felt today as though I was in the company of friends. Humanity is an entity and it exists in every one of us. Awareness is the greatest of all pain relievers. A small amount of acknowledgement goes further than the eye can perceive. Tonight was a great night for me.
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